When Times Get Tough

DeterminationDetermination grows out of adversity. To accomplish an easy or pleasant task does not require determination, it is the difficult or unpleasant task that most definitely does.

Dreams don’t come true on their own. Determination is required to achieve the things we set out to accomplish and to keep things going in the face of discouragement.

The essential purpose of Buddhism is to make people happy. True happiness is the result of consistent effort and constant growth as a human being.

Remind yourself every day, why you are pursuing your goal. Self doubt and negative thoughts are the making of your fundamental darkness. Confront your inner demons and tell them that you are going to overcome them. Take heart and strength from your Practice, chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo will raise your life-energy and help you focus on the task in hand. Remember, nobody ever felt satisfaction from giving up on their dreams.

And keep this in mind when times get tough …

When your determination grows, everything else begins to move in the direction you desire. The moment you resolve to be victorious, every nerve and fibre in your being immediately orient themselves toward your success.

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo.

Goal Setting

Imagine having to do this every day !!!In my current state of limbo, I’m trying hard to keep going forward whilst staying exactly where I am, set myself goals without creating expectations, making plans for whatever eventuality may befall me, and chant for all of the above at once, rather bewildering.

Having led a life that I once considered to be a series of alternating periods of good and bad luck, now clearly demonstrated to be the results of good and bad causes and effects, I find myself in circumstances that are less than prepared for anything like a comfortable retirement.

Not that I’m about to retire just yet, but I am trying to make what arrangements I can, given that I have less than ten years to get the little ducks in line. Judging by current figures, I should have enough to support myself, as long as the right decisions are made along the way and the wheels don’t fall off too soon.

In order to gather more information, I’ve spent most of the day looking into tales of others who are already doing what I plan to do, namely to live on a narrowboat. I’m sure it’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but it is reasonably affordable and has a freedom unlike most other lifestyles. It also comes with an ever changing view from the kitchen window.

If you would like to have a little look for yourself, here is one of Dan Brown’s YouTube videos about his life afloat and a wonderful blog by John and Fiona Slee, living the dream aboard their narrowboat Epiphany. I’ve also been reading this month’s issue of Canal Boat magazine but don’t blame me if you get the bug if you read it too.

Having goals of our own is important if we are to make progress in life, but seeing others who have gone a long way to achieving those same goals gives us encouragement as well as further information that might help achieve our own.

Steering A Steady Course

Steering A Steady CourseWhen you devote yourself to achieving your goals, you will not be bothered by shallow criticism.

Nothing important can be accomplished if you allow yourself to be swayed by some trifling matter, always looking over your shoulder and wondering what others are saying or thinking.

The key to achievement is to move forward along your chosen path with firm determination.

Tell me, what do you think you would do then?

And Then There Were Three ~ GenesisWhen life gets a little messy, I tend to go for familiar things from life, things that help me feel more comfortable. While working from home today, I took the opportunity to listen to some classic, and very familiar music, the Genesis album, And Then There Were Three, released in 1978.

I have loved Genesis since seeing their inaugural tour way back in 1969 and can still remember the dismay when Peter Gabriel left the band. He was such a figurehead, being the lead singer, we wondered whether the band could survive. And Then There Were Three answered that question, and is still one of my favourite albums.

Maybe because of my heightened sense of awareness, maybe because I am looking for meaning in events, I don’t know, but suddenly a set of lyrics that I have known for thirty five years, seemed more relevant than they had ever been before …

Undertow

The curtains are drawn
Now the fire warms the room.
Meanwhile outside
Wind from the north-east chills the air,
It will soon be snowing out there.

And some there are
Cold, they prepare for a sleepless night.
Maybe this will be their last fight.

But we’re safe in each other’s embrace,
All fears go out as I look on your face –

Better think awhile
Or I may never think again.
If this were the last day of your life, my friend,
Tell me, what do you think you would do then?

Stand up to the blow that fate has struck upon you,
Make the most of all you still have coming to you,
Lay down on the ground and let the tears run from you,
Crying to the grass and trees and heaven finally on your knees

Let me live again, let life come find me wanting.
Spring must strike again against the shield of winter.
Let me feel once more the arms of love surround me,
Telling me the danger’s past, I need not feel the icy blast again.

Laughter, music and perfume linger here
And there, and there,
Wine flows from flask to glass and mouth,
As it soothes, confusing our doubts.

And soon we feel,
Why do a single thing to-day,
There’s tomorrow sure as I’m here.

So the days they turn into years
And still no tomorrow appears.

Better think awhile
Or I may never think again.
If this were the last day of your life, my friend,
Tell me, what do you think you would do then?

Stand up to the blow that fate has struck upon you,
Make the most of all you still have coming to you,
Lay down on the ground and let the tears run from you,
Crying to the grass and trees and heaven finally on your knees

Let me live again, let life come find me wanting.
Spring must strike again against the shield of winter.
Let me feel once more the arms of love surround me,
Telling me the danger’s past, I need not feel the icy blast again.

~ Tony Banks 1978

Genesis have provided much of the soundtrack for my life, sometimes happy, sometimes not so happy. Now Nichiren Buddhism is providing the anchor, the Honzon of my life and between the two, I am striving to pull things back together again and move forward.

Positively Choosey

Choosing The Right WayIt may seem to be a strange thing to say, but our happiness, or otherwise, is actually a choice we make for ourselves. It’s basically tied to the way we view the challenges that life throws at us. When something happens, something we would rather hadn’t happened, we have a choice to make. Do we throw our hands in the air and go into a selfish mood of depression, or do we face the issue head on?

If we take the former route, only seeing the bad side of things, the issue will seem to get bigger and worse than it actually is. Our depression will make things even worse, and a negative spiral ensues. This is not a good route to a positive outcome, and even if we were to conquer the problem, it would take us longer and require more effort in the long run. How often have you got into a state over something, only to realise, in the fullness of time, that it really wasn’t as bad as you thought?

The other way to approach things, is to remain calm, look for the positives, and there will be some, rather than focussing on the negatives. A calm mind works better than a frantic mind. Focussing on the positives actually raises our life-state, which makes us feel more energetic and more able to do what needs to be done and meet the challenges head on.

Enlightenment has been described as a state in which we are continuously happy. Now that might sound a bit far fetched, but if we make the right choices, consciously and subconsciously, we can maintain a state of happiness. To attain the ability to control our minds to such a degree that we make the right choices every time is no small matter, which is why the path to enlightenment is long and winding. But I know that I am further down the path each day, and the goal is worth every ounce of effort.

Connected

A Universe Of PossibilitiesIt’s amazing how we and the rest of the Universe are so closely connected. Sitting at home, still working, but being allowed to ‘take stock’ of my current predicament, I’m running dozens of ‘what if’ scenarios through my head.

Then, to focus my own thoughts on just what this situation might make possible, I stumble across this Thought For Today from Sensei …

“When we plant the seeds of self-doubt, only noxious weeds sprout. When we limit ourselves with low expectations, the growth of the tree of happiness immediately ceases.

The power of growth, of improvement, the power to overcome all stagnation and break through every obstacle and transform a barren wasteland into a verdant field—that unstoppable power of hope resides right there in your own heart.

It will well up from the rich earth of your innermost being when you face the future without doubt or fear: “I can do more. I can grow. I can become a bigger and better human being”—life and faith are a never-ending struggle to grow.”

So, when you couple that to the fact that the Canal and River Trust are advertising their vacancies, maybe taking stock is just what I needed, and that the connections are strong.

A Certain Stillness

A Certain StillnessWell, what a strange sort of day. Last week, I received a letter warning that my role within the company was in danger of being made redundant, not the best news. Along with the legalese and waffle about changes to make the company more efficient, there was an invitation to meet and discuss the situation, when I would be able to put my point of view and highlight any details the company might have missed about my role.

I have to say that, despite the pressure of effectively fighting for my future within the company, I remained completely calm throughout the whole proceedings. I even cracked a couple of jokes along the way. I did however make good use of the time I had spent preparing for this battle.

Life is a series of cycles, we all know that, similar situations repeat themselves over time. People who profess to know everything about everything rarely prove that to be the case, and so it transpired this afternoon. Whilst I must admit that there was a hint of self-preservation about it, I felt it was my duty to point this out where appropriate.

So now we have another wait. A wait while the powers that be try to answer the tricky questions that were posed during the meeting, and try to justify their original decisions. The mind races, the dark passenger is having a field day, but I’m rather proud that, through it all, I maintained my dignity and a certain stillness. We shall see what transpires, in time.

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo

Admitting Defeat?

Ventolin - Admitting Defeat?Another trip to Dr Paine tonight involved more soul searching than medical examination. The long battle against the dreaded cough seems to have been won, I haven’t had a coughing fit in more than a week now, but the wheezing that appeared, after the hack had gone, has come back with a vengeance in the last few days.

Life has been a bit stressful in the last few days, so it was really a matter of opening up and telling the Doc all about it. She was very sympathetic and understanding. She completely understood how the stress and the asthma, for that is what it is, are connected. Even the fact that my inhaler was running low contributed to the feeling of mini-panic when my lungs got tight.

So between us, we decided that I may well need the Ventolin for some time to come, and that a repeat prescription was the way forward. I am really rather disappointed. Not in the fact that I can order a new ‘puffer’ whenever I need one, but in the fact that I have had to finally admit that I suffer from asthma.

Maybe I’ve been in denial for all these years? My first, and by far most serious attack was way back in the early nineties, but I had convinced myself that it had been a one off, even when I had a less serious repeat every now and then.

Even now, I’m not giving in. I shall get out in the fresh air, do some lung bursting exercise on the bike, stretch out those bronchioles and see where that leaves Mr Asthma. Looking at it from a Buddhist perspective, I can see that it’s the sort sharp shock that I need to make those causes to lead to the effect I so want to see.

Have A Heart

Have A HeartIn his writings, regarding Buddhist practice, Nichiren repeatedly emphasized the importance of the heart.

While teaching that faith and courage are the powers and functions of the heart that enable us to open the world of Buddhahood in our lives, he also cautioned us against the heart’s negative functions, such as disbelief and cowardice, which close us off to our potential for Buddhahood.

So when we say that we chant with all our heart, we must ensure that we are indeed doing so. Our fundamental darkness lives deep in our hearts and minds, and will, if left unchecked, promote disbelief and cowardice, under the disguise of self protection in some instances.

Confront your fears, examine the thoughts that your Dark Passenger will bring. Be determined to resolve the issues and with a focused mind and a strong heart, chant to increase your faith and courage, ever onward towards enlightenment.

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo

Persistent Little Blighter

Poison Into MedicineDespite having the best antibiotics money can buy, and upping the chanting to levels barely covered by the latest health and safety directives, this flippin’ cough is hanging on in a most tenacious manner.

I think the mere fact we are taking a pill, or drinking some potion, fools our body into feeling better, the placebo effect if you will. But the illusion never lasts and making the causes and seeing the effects  are not necessarily so closely connected. We already know that causes made in past lives are still having effects in this, so I hope the medicine works a bit quicker than that.

But despite the fact that I am still feeling less than tickety-boo, I know that I am making the right causes to see the effect I desire. So now it is a matter of trusting in the doctor, trusting in my practice, and being patient, as opposed to being a patient. Sadly it seems that although the drugs are working on the cough, they are not doing much for my jokes, but you had already worked that bit out for yourselves.

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